Week 8

Results due this week, but something heavier weighs down on my heart.

I've got this girl in my class who is not in school, hasn't been here for almost 3 weeks already. I've called her, smsed her, made a home visit and still feel that there is nothing I can do to help her situation.

YOu know what's the worst thing? I know for sure that this girl wants to study. She is really interested in gaining a better education, she knows the importance of at least getting her 'O' Levels but...what we cannot do is solve her family's financial problems.

The fact that she's a responsible child, one who can see the big picture (that her younger siblings MUST STAY in SCHOOL; that she should help out financially to the family) just makes me feel worse...This is exactly the kind of situation that I wanted to face when I 1st joined service...I believed that I would be able to help those truly in need...but...now that the opportunity is here, I realise that there is so little that we can do...

I hate this feeling...I feel like I've let them down...

Week 7

What a week, briefing for NSWP, rain...sigh...

the weather is indeed bad, many times I wonder why there seems to be this congruence between the weather and my life on these many occasions...

I wonder if there is a sunny day at the end of the horizon. Work...home...work...home...work...home...what has happened to my life?